time to get to proper blogging

okay so now i woke up today feeling lovely, church was refreshing. i don't know what it was about the day that made it so lovely.

before i go on, i must remember to mention this email i got from a wonderful Blogger, apologizing for the long-gone drama and saying she finally understood where i'm coming from. it kind of made my morning although it was a little shocking. thanks, Blogger. i would have said her name if she allowed me to.

i think i'm gonna dedicate this entry to all the wonderful peeps who put up with crap from all over. i know this chick who has put up with all kinds of drama from her mom. this chick, let's call her samantha, has been through the worst crap a person can ever put their daughter through, and the way she talks about it, it's as if it's child's play, if i hadn't seen it myself i would never have known it was so serious. i read a blog today where someone was asking what is the limit, when does stuff stop being humility and become borderline door-mat. samantha is the most joyful of people no matter what, and every one is always going to her for advice and yet for her when she's down she will not tell a single soul but her God. okay well sometimes i pry and she tells me but really! is that safe? we once talked and she cried a little but if i went through half the things this woman's mum puts her through, i would totally break off all ties. and i am talking biological mother, if samantha had a step mum who was mistreating, i would understand but this is the woman's mother. i don't know where people find all those huge bucketfuls of forgivness.

kutesa, my ex boyfriend, has reached the limit of limits with arrogance. i am telling you the man must think he is all that and a bag of chips. well he is not wrong per say but for real i know the man is fine and all, why is it so difficult for him to accept that a woman can move on? all the women who have been with him always have a difficult time picking up the pieces and i decided i would not be like that so he better wake up and smell the bimuli! i think i need to erase him from my life completely, all his photos, emails, text messages, instant messages and every thing he ever bought me and just keep my distance, Greg Behrandt says you should keep away from your ex for at least 60 days and flush him out of the system. i decided to do that but i have cheated so many times, even today at church i sat about 3 pews away, is that silly or what. i will try again and i must get over him. although i wouldn't mind a friendship, when it stops getting awkward.

mom is doing well, the alternative diet thing is actually working for her, special thanks to Joshi for the tips and prayers, i appreciate it man i just thought i should put a post here for you.

there's the phone, my cue to leave.
love ya'll!