(maxine's email) Go Back, Go Forth

i got an email just now from a woman everyone calls "auntie m."

her real name is maxine mbabazi. she's aunt to a pal of mine, asiimwe, who lives in georgia, but she is so sweet that everyone who gets to know her ends up calling her "auntie m" and its possible to think people are related to her even when they're not because she is able to give each person individual attention even in a crowd of 500.

she is sort of like the godmother of all ugandans who are not in uganda, in fact all africans living in the states try to get in touch with her just for that prayerful guidance = like if you need spiritual help or a place to stay or even just a prayer or someone to console and show you that you are not the only one trying to live right, she is the person to call.

auntie m is one of those people who is born again, FOR REAL. she does not mess around and she can get a little scary when she goes off in (toungues tongues) how do you spell it (tongues) and begins to get visions of all the fishy things you have done in secret. and by the way she has taught me that God sees everything and that every sin will eventually come out in the open.she is an example of how to live a holy life, she has no children of her own but has adopted american children and ugandans hate on her for not adopting from her own country.

she has the loveliest marriage, her husband actually reads to her from song of solomon and all that! hard to believe and really corny if your not mushy like me but for me it was a huge blessing. anyway the point is, today i got an email from her that shocked me and then got me praising, see i have been having trouble in my walk with God and lately stuff seems to be all up in my face like some sort of tornado, it's been a huge fight trying to do whats right (ya am also a rhymer) and sometimes it felt like God had left me all alone to fight these battles which made me a little mad that he didnt seem to be with me.

anyway auntie m said she was praying for me and she said she will keep in touch, but she gave me one piece of advice, to start 2007 with a clean slate......and while i try to do that, i should try and remember the last time i really felt God speak to me and remember what i was doing at that time, what right things i was doing in my life and what kind of prayers i was saying because in the place that moses met God, he went back to meet God again and again and God appeared to him in amazing ways and spoke to him face to face.

my sinai...... that is where i must go and even just thinking about it is making my heart leap with anticipation. there is hope,life is not so hard after all.

iwaya! haha........ thank you for that nice comment. ok everyone else as well, thanks. oh, iwaya again, the thing about people hiding stuff well before, and being more open or honest now, i think its not so much hiding the stuff that was done well, i think its more like, sin was so terrible that people were ashamed to be associated with it, or something along those lines. everyone who did wrong tried to change their ways but nowadays no one cares, everyone just blatantly does all kindsa wierd stuff without thinking about if it will help or hurt others.

God bless and dont forget, if you cant feel him, maybe its because you have gone too far away from your sinai.